One-Winged Angel

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2006-10-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

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Milenyo in the University of the Philippines

2006-10-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

Saturday, Semtember 30, 2006.

On my way to school, I was shocked to see many of the big acacia trees uprooted and their branches broken off. Leaves and branches were scatterd on the streets, you'd think it was impossible for vehicles to pass through. Acad oval was still car-free, except for the heavy machinery which were pulling the broken branches hanging from trees and power cables. In some buildings, windows were broken. Electric posts were broken in half, and power cables were hanging low. The whole scene looked like a disaster! It was like some sort of scene from a war movie.

Despite the gloomy atmosphere, we still managed to joke about it. At Vinson's Hall, you'd see Andres Bonifacio holding his "bolo", and almost all the trees around him were either uprooted or snapped. A friend said "Haha, Andres cut those trees down!"

We walked around the school and we noticed some people cutting the broken down trees. They were gathering firewood. Literally.

I'm glad the stores now have their sturdy "kiosks" and are not in their wooden stands anymore. If they had been, they would've been blown away to Cubao by now.
Haha.

*Yawn* can't write anymore. Brain's lagging. That's all for now. *Yawn*

My First Comic Strip

2006-09-30T00:19:00.000+08:00

I like drawing, but I've never really been into comic strips. Here's the very first comic strip I've ever published. Haha, it's about a friend of mine who cut off his precious hair just because he heard from a friend that the girl he likes so much didn't like him back.

**done using mspaint

my best shots, on rock you!

2006-09-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

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Only Reminds Me Of You

2006-09-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

Paul Petersen

I see you beside me
it's only a dream,
a vision of what used to be
the laughter, the sorrow
pictures in time
fading to memories.

how could I ever let you go
is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side
but each place I hide
it only reminds me of you
when I turn out all the light
even the night
it only reminds me of you.. you...

I needed my freedom
that's what I thought
but I was a fool to believe
my heart cried while you cried
rivers of tears but I was too blind to see

everything we've been though before
now it means so much more

I tried to run from your side
but each place I hide
it only reminds me of you
When it turn out all the light
even the night
it only reminds me of you..

only you..
so come back to me
I'm down on my knees
can't you see..

how could I ever let you go
is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side
but each place I hide
it only reminds me of you
when it turn out all the light
even the night it only reminds me of you... you

Only reminds me of you

Harry Potter Puppet Parodies

2006-09-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

Check these out, guys!

Sorcerer's Stone

Chamber of Secrets

Prisoner of Azkaban

Goblet of Fire

Enjoy!! ^_~

Out of Reach

2006-08-27T10:55:00.000+08:00

Gabrielle

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

But now I'm
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me

Don't Tell Me

2006-08-26T18:10:00.000+08:00

by Avril Lavigne

You held my hand and walked me home I know
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love cause you're so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl , the one who gives it all away? yea

[Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that It was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
I got you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl the one who, throws it all away

[Chorus]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that It was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I done no wrong.
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

[Chorus]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that It was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

I'm better off alone anyway!!!

HP Book 7 News

2006-08-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

Confirmed Information

Character Information

We will find out something "incredibly important" about Lily Potter
We will find out who R.A.B. is
We will discover more about Dumbledore's past
We will discover where Snape's loyalties lie.
Something will be revealed about Petunia Dursley, although it will not be that she is a Squib
Viktor Krum will return (World Book Day, 2004 interview)
We will see a reappearance of Dolores Umbridge - "It's too much fun to torture her not to have another little bit more before I finish." (MuggleNet/Leaky Interview)
JKR has said, "There is a character who does manage, in desperate circumstances, to do magic quite late in life, but that is very rare..."

Plot Information

Harry will face Voldemort for the final time
Harry will be attempting to find and destroy Voldemort’s remaining Horcruxes
Harry will return to the Dursleys' during the school vacation, but the magical protection Dumbledore arranged will expire on his 17th birthday when he comes of age
Harry will visit Godric's Hollow
There will be a reappearance of the two-way mirror
We will see the wedding of Fleur and Bill Weasley
The fact that Harry "has his mother's eyes" will prove to be an important plot point
At least one character will die

Other

The last word is expected to be "scar," but may change
We will finally learn the full reason why some people become ghosts when they die and others don't
The final chapter, which has already been written, will detail what happens to the characters that survive
There will be no more Quidditch matches

Possible Couples

Ron and Hermione

After reading Half-Blood Prince, I'm sure most of you will agree that Ron and Hermione will eventually hook up. Although they never did anything in Book 6 to indicate they're now officially an item, we know this is due to the massive and more important events taking place elsewhere (like Dumbledore's death). I'm sure we'll see these two properly confess their longings in the next book. After what happened in the penultimate novel (Ron's jealousy of Hermione dating Cormac McLaggen and Hermione's jealousy of Ron and Lavender's relationship), this pairing is a sure thing. Besides, JKR confirmed this in her interview with MuggleNet/TLC.

Harry and Ginny

At Dumbledore's funeral in HBP, Harry told Ginny they could no longer be together.

"Ginny, listen.... I can't be involved with you anymore. We've got to stop
seeing each other. We can't be together." (HBP, pg. 646)

Harry explains to Ginny that if Voldemort discovers they are an item, she may be in danger. Ginny protests saying she doesn't care, but Harry refuses to let another loved one die at the hands of Voldemort. There is a small possibility that their relationship may rekindle in Book 7, but I seriously doubt it. Harry has bigger things to do.

Draco and Pansy

A likely couple... pre-Book 6. Since Prisoner of Azkaban, the pair has been almost joined at the hip. For example, when Buckbeak bites Draco in Book 3, we see Pansy absolutely devastated. We also see hints of a relationship in Book 6:

Malfoy, sniggering, lay back down across two seats with his head in Pansy
Parkinson's lap. Harry lay curled uncomfortably under the cloak to ensure
that
every inch of him remained hidden, and watched Pansy stroke the sleek
blond hair
off Malfoy's forehead, smirking as she did so, as though anyone
would have loved
to have been in her place.

Pansy clearly likes (if not loves) Malfoy and looks up to him, but I can't say that Malfoy feels the same way about her. He enjoys Pansy's company but only because she fawns over him and gives him royal treatment. Besides, even if he did like her, he's too busy with other things - just like Harry is too busy with his Horcrux quest to stay in a relationship with Ginny.

Hermione and McLaggen

It's obvious Hermione went to Slughorn's party with Cormac just to make Ron jealous. Not gonna happen.

Won-Won and Lavender

Again, just Ron trying to make Hermione jealous. That relationship is over.

Bill Weasley and Fleur Delacour

These two are engaged and have a wedding planned for the opening summer in Book 7, so unless something goes seriously wrong, these two are sticking together.

Hagrid and Maxime

We actually didn't see much of these two together in Book 6, but our bet is they're still "close" - and who knows how their relationship will develop in the seventh book?

Ginny and Neville

It's a longshot, but as Ginny is now Harry-free, she might take more of an interest in Neville. They've always been close - even if Ginny is friends with him partly out of pity.

Tonks and Lupin

We see from the hospital wing scene at the end of HBP that Nymphadora and Remus do have feelings for each other; the only thing that's keeping the relationship from developing at this point is Lupin pulling away because of his lycanthropy. We think he'll come to his senses eventually, though, especially in these times, where it's most important to keep loved ones close.

Debunked Rumors

Character Information

Dumbledore is really dead. He is not in hiding and is not coming back.
There will be no character named "Icicle," and JK said that she didn't recall saying there ever would be
Dumbledore is not Harry's relative
Harry is not related to Voldemort and he is not related to Salazar Slytherin
Lily Potter is not alive
Lily was not a Death Eater
Crookshanks is not an Animagus
Neville is not the son of Peter Pettigrew
Remus Lupin does not have a twin brother
Petunia is not a Squib
Dumbledore is not Harry/Ron from the future
Mrs Norris/Crookshanks will not be discovered as an Animagus

Plot Information

Harry will not become Minister for Magic
Peter Pettigrew’s silver hand will not kill Lupin
Lupin will not return as a DADA professor
The prophecy refers to Harry, and not in any way to Neville
The final part of the prophecy does not mean Harry has to kill Neville, or vice versa

Other

The title of the book will not be "Harry Potter and the Pyramids of Furmat"
No prequel books are planned (no books before Harry's time at Hogwarts)
"Keeper of the Keys" has no secret meaning
The Sorting Hat is not a horcrux

from MuggleNet

Talents Night Pix!!

2006-08-24T19:46:00.000+08:00

Best Performance I've ever seen... As in, EVER!!

Me with my co-apps!

Me with my buddies, Arthur and Ryan.

Dinner time!

Me with my co-apps and one unidentified person... HEHEHE!! **can you guess where the rest of Ryan's arm went?

**It's still not here!

Batch '04

Everyone, wacky pose ^^

Smile everyone!! ^^

Smile At Me, bebeh!! **That's the song title

Pare Ko!

Best Disclaimer Ever

2006-08-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

Something from the archives. Wrote this when I made my own blog template for ylime.

This template is not available for sale. I am available, though, if ever you want to order a blog template; just send your email at orbit_16_2003@yahoo.com and I'll see what I can do. For a greater chance for me to give you a good template, please do not hesitate to send all your money and belongings to our house; including your grandma... yeah, she's mine you little fruit cake! She will be my slave and make her cook pie for the rest of her life!

All images, sounds, and other stuff like css are hosted somewhere in China and you'll have to dig a hole using a plastic spoon to get there. If ever you intend to rip or pirate some of them, please get ur own f*ckin host provider, stop being a damn pirate and avoid direct linking. If ever my bandwidth exceeds for no reason, I'm going to hunt you down and tear ur f*ckin head of with my bear hands.

All image/s in this site was made by me. Stop being a damn p*ssy and create ur own. If ever I find my image/s on other sites I'm going to beat the sh*t out of whoever the site owner is.

Site layout including shout box template is and forever will be my property and I forbid you guys to steal it from me or I'll stalk you and kill ur momma.

All who go against my wishes will be stalked, their mommas killed, their puppy dogs strangled with its own guts, and their houses burnt to the ground. In addition to this, I will steal christmas and stab santa's eye with a pen. I will take over all of santa's operations and every christmas you will receive one of his body parts! Mwahahaha!!

This has been a public service announcement brought to you by:

My Will and Testament as of 081606

2006-08-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

OK, I know I shouldn't be writing about this, mom would kill me if she finds out I've been planning my own funeral! Hmm... come to think about it, that would be good coz I wouldn't have to kill myself. But my point is, I never know when I'm gonna die, and there are things I want people to do when I die. I don't think this is such a grand idea because I wouldn't know if they're gonna do it anyway because I'll be already dead by that time.

Guests

For about a thousand times now, I've planned about how to kill myself. The tricky part is how to make it look like an accident. But all this planning is pointless, because I have no choice but to live my life out in a "normal" way. I can't commit suicide because some (very few, if not one) people will hate to see me gone. Well, I don't know if anyone except my mom would care if I die. But I hope to see the following people in my funeral (of course I wouldn't expect to see them coz by that time I'd probably be dead anyway):

All of my relatives
My highschool friends (esp. Kumags)
Tita Ye and children
UP FLIPP
Arvhin
Mimi
Zcara
Jayson
My friends from SMBL

Where

I want to be burried under my tree. That's the tree with pink leaves, I always see it in the middle of the fields when I ride the bus. I don't know if it's still there, I think they cut it down when Colinas Verdes tried to put roads there. Well, if it still exists, I want to be burried there.

If the tree's not there anymore, I'd be cremated. Then, I want my ashes to be scattered in UP's Sunken Garden. I really liked that place. There was a time that when I had so many problems and I thought I couldn't take it anymore, I just went there. I enjoyed the feeling of all my troubles fading away one by one.

Theme

In the last will and testament I wrote, I wanted everyone to wear neon colored clothes (hot pink, orange, yellow, apple green, etc). Now I've changed my mind. I want everyone to wear ordinary jeans and plain black shirts. No prints, no spaghetti stratps, no sleeveless blouses. Just plain black shirts.

Music

OK. Listen, and listen good. I hate it when they play "Di Kita Malilimutan" in someone's funeral. Here's a list of music to be played in my funeral.

Heaven - DJ Sammy feat. Yanou
6 Feet From The Edge - Creed
Away From The Sun - 3 Doors Down
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
It's Been A While - Staind
So Far Away - Staind
Ode To My Family - Cranberries
Photograph - Nickelback
She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5

Uhmm, I think these will do.

Properties

I don't have much stuff. Of course, everything will go to mom. And I want everyone to jot down lots of stuff about me in my blog. And I want everyone to send testimonials, as their last goodbye, on my friendster account.

The Coffin

I want my coffin made of wood. Glossy black color.

Me

I don't want to die ugly. I hope I don't die in some kind of freak accident that would severely dement my face. And, I want to die an Iseki. That's my real surname, by the way. If not, I'd like to die a Fernando. My mom's surname.

Well, that's all I could think of for now. At least everyone would know how I want to die. Pinaka ayoko lang talaga jan yung may magpapatugtog ng "Di Kita Malilimutan" EHEK! Excuse me noh!

Played With The Cam

2006-08-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

Geez... How could anyone ever love me if I looked as horrible as THIS?!

See that towel behind me? Hehe... This is my uncle's room.

My Opinions About the OP Cast

2006-08-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

Old Cast

Ok, first of all, Daniel and Rupert Doesn't look like teenagers anymore. Daniel looks like a wood stump and Rupert looks like an abominable hair monster. Emma Watson's hair isn't so bushy anymore, like Hermione's is supposed to be.

James and oliver Phelps still fit perfectly well as Fred and George. Bonnie Wright still looks like a kid, although in the Order of the Phoenix, she's supposed to look hot enough to catch almost every guys' attention.

Cho's face is still round, I don't like her. Alan Rickman still isn't thin enough as Severus Snape.

New Cast

Imelda Staunton as Dolores Umbridge; perfect pick. Kingsley Shacklebolt; I thought he was white or something.

Robbie Jarvis as young James Potter... He doesn't look like Harry's dad in the movie. Not even close. He looks good though; it's just that he looks better than James Walters who will be playing the part of young Siurius Black. In the book, Sirius was supposed to be the best looking guy in their gang.

I think Luna Lovegood should've been played by Dakota Fanning.

The OP is Coming!

2006-08-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

SPOILER ALERT!!

OK, now. Relax. Got these stuff from Harry Potter Fan Zone so go check out full details there.

No, the rumors aren't true. They're not going to replace Daniel Radcliffe and Rupert Grint.

New Casts (Confirmed)

New Casts for the upcoming Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix movie... Spoiler Alert!

Imelda Staunton as Professor Dolores Umbridge

George Harris as Kingsley Shaklebolt

Robbie Jarvis as young James Potter

Susie Shinner as young Lily Evans

Michael Wildman as Magorian the Centaur

Evanna Lynch as Luna Lovegood

Helena Bonham Carter as Bellatrix Lestrange

Natalie Tena as Nymphadora Tonks

Kathryn Hunter as Mrs. Arabella Figg (you know, that squib)

Sian Thomas as Amelia Bones

Jason Boyd as Piers Polkiss (don't ask, I don't know this guy either)

Richard Macklin as Malcom (auror, perhaps?)

Richard Leaf as Dawlish the Auror

Nick Shim as Zacharias Smith

Jim Mcmanus as Aberforth Dumbledore

Tony Maudsley as GRAWP

Apple Brook as Professor Grubbly-Plank

James Walters as young Sirius Black

James Utechin as young Remus Lupin

Alec Hopkins as young Severus Snape

Jason Piper as Bane

Production Timeline

Oops! HPFZ says info cannot be reproduced so you guys will have to check the site out yourself! Here's the link: HPOP Production Timeline

That includes a lists of scenes which have already been filmed, pictures from the OP set, cut scenes, and notable dates.

imgs and info from Harry Potter Fan Zone... i hope they don't mind me borrowing some of them...

Cinder Girl (Cinderella)

2006-08-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

Some pictures from UP FLIPP Photoshoot '06 (August 12, 2006)

Cinder Girl

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Cinder who lived with her step sisters, JLo and Fiona.

The Royal Family invited them to a ball but Cinder's step sisters didn't allow her to go with them. So her Fairy Grub Mother came to the rescue to blah blah blah, you know the story.

Thus, Cinder made it to the ball, and met Prince/ss(?) Char... coal? Then, blah blah blah...

After blah blah blah, and many more blah blah blah's... They lived shabbily ever after.

THE END

My New Yahoo Avatar

2006-08-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to my old gothic avatar. Hello to my my new BLIS avatar! ^^ Featuring my boyfriend's guitar, ILIS building, and my pet dog Sarah.

I feel so narcissistic sometimes... ^^

Conflict

2006-08-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday was UPCAT day again. Lots of aspiring UP freshmen from all over the country gathered inside our campus. Only a lucky few will of course be chosen to be future students of UP.

Anyway, last Saturday is also our UP FLIPP Buddy Day. Kuya Carlos and I won, of course. We even won the egg catching event, evethough my hands were shakey. After the Buddy Contest, we applicants had a meeting about the upcoming Talents Night. Then there was a conflict. There was something about what Arthur said that made my blood boil. I'm not gonna talk about it here anymore, though. Like what I told Arthur last Sunday, there are lots of better ways to shut a person up. And this is my way of shutting myself up. ^^

Well, at least we were still able to smile when this picture was taken.

Nuff said... I'm so sleepy I can't even write proper English. *yawn* (12:30 am)

Random Lyrics V

2006-08-05T19:48:00.000+08:00

Away From The Sun
3 Doors Down

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss the life
I miss the colors of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone. There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

Oh no,
Yeah,
Oh no...

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

Oh no,
Yeah,
I'm gone

Something in the Archives

2006-08-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

Here's something I found in my blog archives:

So sus cyf ic. Oayr, duikr milg rir? Huf cra'c vunpettah res vnus lusehk du uin ruica, yht cra ajah luhveclydat so bruha cu dra uhmo fyo fa luimt lussihelyda fyc drnuikr dra ehdanhad. E secc res cu silr. E cdemm nasaspan dra rybbo sasuneac E ryt fedr res. *cekr*.

E secc fymgehk eh dra nyeh fedr res. E secc dra fyo ra kadc syt yd sa vun hud pnehkehk yh ispnammy. E secc aydehk yd Zummepaa un SlTuhymtc fedr res. E secc ruf ra fuimt ymfyoc pio sa Rud Vitka puvuna fa ku rusa. E secc netehk dra pic fedr res yht kaddehk cdnyhtat eh y cduns. E secc drnufehk ib eh vnuhd uv HLPY. E secc kuehk du rec ruica. E secc ryjehk du fyga ib yd 4 yht fyedehk vun res ihdem 5:30 frah ra fuimt fyed vun yh VQ eh vnuhd uv uin ruica. E secc daqdehk res, dammehk res du kad ib. E secc ruf E fuimt vymm ycmaab cusadesac yht vyem du caa res mayja. E secc ruf ra fuimt kad tecybbuehdat frah dryd rybbahc. E secc dra tyo frah ra dyikrd sa ruf du neta y pelolma. E secc aydehk yd Jehcuh'c Rymm fedr res. E secc ruf ra fuimt fecr sa milg vun yh aqys. E secc druca desac frah ra fuimt fyed vun sa ihdem lmycc ec ujan. E secc ceddehk yd dra Sadym Puq fedr res yht lrufehk tufh uh Cryfynsy Nela. E secc rec ihevuns. E secc jecedehk res yd VAI. E secc druca desac frah ra belgc sa ib yd dra fyedehk crat eh vnuhd uv SlTuhymtc. E secc dra knaah hudapuug frana fa fuimt fneda aylr udran. E secc geccehk yht rikkehk res. E secc fydlrehk JLT fedr res. E secc rec lunho zugac.

E secc res cu silr. Cdemm 3 oaync du ku pavuna E vehecr lummaka. Yht cdemm 4 oaync du ku pavuna ra vehecrac rec. Ryoo... cyhy gyse by neh yvdan ajanodrehk.

Well, I know what I'm talking about. I still feel this way up to now. But I have to learn to forget, to continue to live... and let live.

What the hell am I talking about?! All these useless wallowing in sadness! I have to learn to let go. I should be happy! But how? Hmm... It's this stupid midi file! It's making me feel depressed! Gotta go change it! ^^

SOS

2006-08-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

Someone help me, please!

My friends are nowhere to be found, they don't seem to know I exist. I have no one to turn to anymore. I don't know if I can trust the people I'm with. I have no idea if they understand my situation, or just trying to listen but don't think my problem concerns them.

Where are my best friends?

Love + Friendship = Oil + Water

2006-08-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

Introduction
Twice in my life, I said that everyone seems to be bringing me down. Now, is that true? Or am I the one who is trying to self destruct by thinking everyone cares about me, and noticing for the first time, that no one really gives a damn?

Problem
Ok, so I'm now down to almost nothing. Jay seems to have forgotten that I'm his best friend; Jayson's acting like I don't exist then suddenly pops up out of nowhere asking for some "intimacy" (oh, how stupid can anyone get?); Arvhin's got a new girlfriend which he calls "bear(?)" and I can't seem to figure out why I'm feeling so devastated instead of being happy for him (he is, after all, one of my best friends, but he doesn't seem to want to have anything to do with me anymore. This of course, I think, is my fault).

What to do, what to do? Well, just figured it out last night. I'm on my own now. I don't have to do anything. It's my fault, and my stupid tendency to think that everyone loves me, which is causing me to feel like this.

Hypotheses
No, I don't have to keep bugging Jay with text messages that he doesn't even reply to. I don't even have to make him come to our house, like he promised me one time. If he isn't talking to me just because he found out that I'm not a virgin anymore, well, I can't do anything about that, can I? That's just the way life is. Everything changes. I changed, and so did Jay.

No, I don't have to break up with Jayson (yet...). I don't have to go to his house just to find out if he's enjoying the company of another girl while I'm away. And I'm sick and tired of giving him clues (sometimes I just shout it to his face, though, but sometimes I think he still doesn't get the point) that I'm not satisfied with just sitting around all day, waiting for him to send me a message (of course, I'm just wasting my time coz he never does anyway). I don't know what to do with him anymore. It's like he wants me to accept the way he is (insensitive and somewhat apathetic) if I really love him, at the expense of my own happiness. Sometimes I think he's just playing with our relationship, or that maybe he's forgotten how to love (I am, after all, his 9th girlfriend). Or maybe he's just gotten tired of having a girl friend. I don't know.

And no, I don't think I have to go to Arvhin's house just to befriend him again (and apologize all over again). I think I know why he wants me out of his life. Of course, I don't want him out of my life; I still want to be friends with him like what we were before "everything" happened. But if he doesn't want to be my best friend anymore, then, I guess I can't do anything about that. He's moving on. He just wants to be with his new girl friend. Like he said in his friendster profile, "The only thing I care about is me and my bear," or something like that. It was a big slap in the face for me, of course. I guess I still haven't gotten over him.

I've always thought I was matured enough to handle a relationship. As it turns out, I'm just a kid trying to find out if unicorns do exist.

Experiment
Uhmm... I don't think so.

Conclusion
I therefore conclude that I'm just as stupid as I say guys are. I keep on jumping from one relationship to another, hoping I'd be happier, but end up being more damaged and devastated than ever.

I therefore conclude that I will never find happiness in relationships... well, not until I'm matured enough. There's nothing more that would make me happier right now than leave everything behind and be single. Of course, I am jumping to conclusions again and I know that some time in the future I would regret saying these things.

I therefore conclude that I better give Jay up; just wait how things will turn out with Jayson and me; and say goodbye to Arvhin all over again for the nth time.

I therefore conclude that love sucks and it's a big pain in the ass.

Arvhin Part 3 - Epilogue

2006-08-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

The Final Rites
(should've written this ages ago. but i think now's the perfect time)

i don't know if should be writing anything about him right now. i'm depressed, i have a lot of problems now, and i'm not in the right mind. i don't know if i should be writing anything at all, especially about arvhin.

ed'c ysywehk ruf oui daht du drehg dryd yvdan pnaygehk ib fedr cusauha, ouin vaamehkc vun res ryc vytat yfyo ehdu hukdrehkhacc. drah, yvdan y muhk desa, frah oui caa aylr udran ykyeh, ymm oui fyhdat du tu fyc zisb uid uv dra jarelma oui'na uh yht keja res y pek rik.

dra drehk ec, e cyf res mycd cydintyo. e fyc netehk y dnelolma, uh so fyo rusa. fa lnuccat aylr udran'c bydrc ymuhk dra fyo. dra cdyndmat muug uh rec vyla, e femm hajan pa ypma du vunkad. ed ymm rybbahat cu vycd. dra dnelolma fyc daynehk yd dra cdnaadc, e teth'd ajah ryja desa du csema yd dras ajah ev e fyhdat du. so aoac xielgmo crevdat vnus rec vyla, du rec ryht frelr fyc rumtehk y kenm'c, yht du dra kenm paceta res, fruca vyla teth'd syga yh ebnacceuh eh so seht. e fyhdat du csema yd dras, du cruf res dryd ed fyc ug. pid e kiacc e fych'd naymmo ug, luw ymm e tet fyc ped so meb frema dra dnelolma dinhat dra lunhan.

e tuh'd ghuf fryd e cruimt vaam. ed'c ymm y jeleuic seq uv asudeuhc yht druikrdc ehceta sa. e tuh'd ghuf ev e fyhd du pa rybbo vun res, un ev e fyhd du lno palyica e's ryjehk "cruimt'ja paah" abecutac eh so rayt.

e cruimt'ja paah eh ran bmyla. e cruimt'ja paah dra uha cdyhteht lmuca du res, ahzuoehk dra nyeh. E cruimt'ja paah drana rumtehk rec ryht, ihluhcleuicmo vettmehk fedr rec vehkanc frema cyoehk cfaad keppanecr du aylr udran.

famm, fryd amca luimt e tu? e'ja tuha fryd e'ja tuha, yht e tuh'd naknad yhodrehk.

cu fryd'c ymm drec tnysy ypuid? famm, e kiacc, ed'c fryd e fuimt mega du lymm y "nacetia uv vaamehkc" vun res. yvdanymm, ra fyc dra sucd lynehk yht dra cfaadacd kio e'ja ajan paah fedr.

e vaam cemmo druikr. ed'c mega cusdrehk ehceta sa fyhdc du ryja res pylg. e ghuf dryd'c hud nekrd druikr. drec ec hud y kysa. yht ra'c hud y duo. zicd paddan pa rybbo vun fryd'c paah rybbahehk eh rec meva huf. yd maycd ra'c hud cgimgehk yht tnehgehk yht csugehk yhosuna palyica uv dra syzun tajycdydeuh e lyicat res dfela. e drehg dryd'c ahuikr, yht yho suna uv dryd yht so cuim femm tavehedamo pinh eh ramm.

e muja res duu silr dryd e's femmehk du keja res ib, lnywo yc ed syo caas. fa'na y pyt ehvmiahla du aylr udran. cina, fa muja aylr udran yht ajah luhcetanat synneyka. pid uin muja ryc jano pek hakydeja ceta avvaldc, ev oui kioc ghuf fryd e sayh. cu fa ryt du aht ed... hu, e ryt du aht ed. yht ajanodrehk fyc tevvelimd yd vencd, pid e syhykat du vunkad res, un cu e druikrd. yht huf... drec rybbahc. e's kuehk lnywo.

fryd funca ec, dryd e yknaat du pa pacdvneahtc fedr res. pid e cusaruf syhykat du damm res du cdub lussihelydehk fedr sa. dryd ec uha uv dra csymm drehkc e naknad.

e fecr drana fyc y fyo du aqbmyeh drec du res, pid e ghuf ed femm pa y fycda uv desa. e ryja y puovneaht huf, yht ra ryc y kenmvneaht. syopa e cruimt zicd cdub drehgehk ypuid draca drehkc. ed'c ujan. e cruimt vyla ed. ajah uin vneahtcreb ec ujan. ed'c cyt, pid drana'c hudrehk e lyh tu ypuid ed yhosuna. e kiacc, drec ec kuut poa ymm ujan ykyeh.

for arvhin:

"e naknad dra vyld dryd e dumt oui du cdub daqdehk sa yht dumt oui du tamada so hispan vnus ouin bruha...

ryja oui vunkuddah fryd e dumt oui frah fa pnuga ib?
e dumt oui, e't nydran pa ouin vneaht dryh pa y cdnyhkan du oui palyica e lyh hajan meja fedruid oui.
dryd tyo, e ycgat oui... fro yna oui cdemm daqdehk sa?
cusaruf, cusa bynd uv sa fyc rubehk oui't damm sa dryd oui cdemm muja sa. pid e kiacc oui secihtancduut yht dryd'c frah oui dumt sa oui'na hajan kuhhy daqd sa ykyeh.

e muja oui yht e fyhd oui du pa rybbo. dryd'c fro oui tuh'd ryja du funno luw e's hud kuhhy dno yht pnayg oui yht ouin "payn" ib.

e muja oui yht e fyhd oui du pa rybbo... ajah ev e's mavd eh y lunhan du fymmuf eh so ufh muhamehacc. uv luinca, oui't cyo, "fryd y cdibet fyo du cruf muja". pid e ghuf oui'mm hajan pa rybbo fedr sa. palyica e ghuf e ycg duu silr dryh e ehdaht du."

thank you for the things you taught me
thank you for the things you let me teach you
thank you for lifting me up when i was low
thank you for putting my feet back on the ground when i was soaring too high up
thank you for backing me up
thank you for leading the way
im sorry for the pain i caused you
im sorry i'm not what you expected me to be

goodbye,
my friend
who became my lover
who became my friend again
who is now a stranger to me...

e femm cdemm fneda ypuid oui
e cdemm ryja ouin beldinac
e cdemm ryja ouin cfaydan
e cdemm ryja ouin sasuneac
e cdemm muja oui...
ymdruikr e tu hud ryja ouin muja yhosuna

-=+:oui hajan ghuf fryd oui'ja kud ihdem oui'ja mucd ed:+=-

**written in al bhed

Blogger Code?

2006-07-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

My blogger code: B6 d- t k+ s+ u-- f i o+ x- e+ l+ c+
(decode it!)

** got the idea from Noel Feria's blog ^____^

Who is R.A.B.?

2006-07-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

After reading the sixth installment of the Harry Potter Series, entitled Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, we are left with a fake Horcrux and a riddle inside...

"To the Dark Lord I know I will be dead long before you read this but I want you to know that it was I who discovered your secret. I have stolen the real Horcrux and intend to destroy it as soon as I can. I face death in the hope that when you meet your match,you will be mortal once more. R. A. B."

So, who the hell is R.A.B? I myself couldn't sleep just thinking about it. Then an idea hit me. Only one person would fit perfectly with these initials. Regulus Black, Sirius' Death Eater of a younger brother. Of course, it wasn't clear said that Regulus had a second name, or if their mother had a surname starting with the letter A. I searched the net trying to find out if other people had the same idea as me. As it turns out, almost all of the search results say that Regulus Black is, indeed, their top suspect. Here's one of the theories I found:

Is R.A.B. Regulus Black, Sirius's younger brother? Why?

1. His note addresses the Dark Lord a term used by Death Eater's. Regulus was a Death Eater who turned on Voldemort and was eventually destroyed by him or his followers.
2. The Death Eaters knew about the Horcruxes as Voldemort said in the graveyard in GOF to his Death Eaters:
"And I asked myself, but how could they have believed I would not rise again? They, who knew the steps I took, long ago, to guard myself against mortal death?"
3. Regulus's middle name could be Alphard - named after his uncle. Other wizard characters are named after same gender family names like Harry James Potter and Tom Marvolo Riddle.
4. A locket that nobody could open was found at 12 Grimmauld Place and was discarded. It is thought either Kreacher took it with other items (Horcruxes) or perhaps Mundungus stole it.
5. Regulus removed the Horcrux with Kreacher who being an elf with limited magical powers was able to join Regulus in the one-wizard boat, but two people were required to drink the poison liquid. Regulus wrote "I" have stolen the real Horcrux, because he didn't respect his accomplice as an elf enough to be credit him.
6. Voldemort in Book 4 says of his death eaters.
"There are 6 missing death eaters, 3 are dead, one too cowardly to return - he will pay (Karkorff?), one who has left me - he will be killed (Regulus) one who remains my faithful servant - he will re-enter my service (Snape?)."
7. The writer of the clue had to be dead given the way the message was written. Regulus was meant to have died the same year as HP's parents died, which was 16 years before the message was read. Yet, the message suggests the writer was aware of the prophecy that Voldemort would meet his match. Since Harry could command Kreacher, there were no living relatives of Sirius (such as Regulus) who could inherit #12 Grimmauld Place.
8. Why did Harry inherit #12 Grimmauld Place and Kreacher if they weren't going to feature in the final book?

And, for a more reliable source, here is something from Wikipedia:

In Chapter 28 of Half-Blood Prince, the following note was found in a locket recovered by Albus Dumbledore and Harry Potter:

To the Dark Lord I know I will be dead long before you read this but I want you to know that it was I who discovered your secret. I have stolen the real Horcrux and intend to destroy it as soon as I can. I face death in the hope that when you meet your matchyou will be mortal once more. R.A.B.

The locket was recovered in the belief that it was one of Lord Voldemort's Horcruxes. Harry, along with Hermione and Ron, start to investigate who might have had the initials R.A.B. Hermione searches the books in the school library for the names of any wizards with the initials, and finds many wizards and witches with the initials, including Rosalind Antigone Bungs and Rupert "Axebanger" Brookstanton, but neither Bungs nor Brookstanton seemed to have any connection with Voldemort and therefore weren't very likely candidates to be the writer of the note.
There are no candidates specifically mentioned in the books having exactly R.A.B. as initials, apart from those identified by Hermione. However, there are several characters with surnames beginning with "B" and with unknown given or middle names, or whose initials might match "R.A.B." if they preferred to use their middle name as if it were their given name. There could also be characters who changed their surname, as by marriage.

J. K. Rowling has stated in interviews that the sixth book of the Harry Potter series is to a large degree the first part of a two part story. She has also stated that no new major characters will be introduced in the final book. Readers have drawn the conclusion that the mysterious R.A.B. must represent a person or persons already known in the existing books and that it is possible to determine the identity of R.A.B. by careful study. A wide fan-following of the Harry Potter series began speculating almost instantaneously about the identity of R.A.B., since this would likely and markedly affect the plot of the seventh book.

Melissa Anelli from The Leaky Cauldron and Emerson Spartz from Mugglenet were invited by J. K. Rowling to interview her immediately after The Half-Blood Prince was published. [1] Emerson asked Rowling, "What's one question you wished to be asked and what would be the answer to the question?"

She replied, "Um — such a good question. What do I wish I could be asked? Today, just today, July the 16th, I was really hoping someone would ask me about R.A.B., and you did it. Just today, because I think that is — well, I hoped that people would."

Melissa asked, "Is there more we should ask about him?" Rowling replied, "There are things you will deduce on further reading, I think — well you two definitely will, for sure — that, yeah, I was really hoping that R.A.B. would come out." As is Rowling's normal policy in such interviews, this did not confirm or deny that R.A.B. had been identified.

The character who has the greatest support as a candidate to be R.A.B. is Regulus Black, the younger brother of Sirius Black, who has been mentioned in passing but has not had any plot significance yet. Previously mentioned in the interview quoted above, Anelli suggested to Rowling that R.A.B. could stand for Regulus A. Black. The following conversation ensued:

Rowling: "Well, I think that would be, um, a fine guess.".
Melissa: "Forgive me if I'm remembering incorrectly, but was Regulus the one who was murdered by Voldemort?"
Rowling: "Well Sirius said he wouldn't have been because he wasn't important enough, remember?"
Melissa: "But that doesn’t have to be true, if [R.A.B.] is writing Voldemort a personal note."
Rowling: "That doesn't necessarily show that Voldemort killed him, personally, but Sirius himself suspected that Regulus got in a little too deep. Like Draco. He was attracted to it, but the reality of what it meant was way too much to handle."

Many believe these comments to be indirect confirmation that R.A.B. is Regulus Black.
Rowling had already been asked about Regulus prior to the publication of The Half-Blood Prince, during World Book Day online chat, March 4, 2004. Rowling answering the question: "Will we be hearing anything from Sirius Black's brother, Regulus, in future books?" said: "Well, he's dead, so he's pretty quiet these days."

Regulus is mentioned three times in The Half-Blood Prince, by Albus Dumbledore, by Horace Slughorn, and then by Remus Lupin, early in the book. In comparison, his brother Sirius was mentioned by Hagrid in the opening chapter of the first book, with no further mention until The Prisoner of Azkaban, where he was the title character alongside Harry.

Regulus was a Death Eater who tried to disassociate himself from Voldemort. He was killed on Voldemort's orders (Sirius notes that Regulus was too unimportant to warrant Voldemort doing this himself). The note left by R.A.B. addresses Voldemort as The Dark Lord, and Death Eaters are one of the only groups who customarily refer to him thus.

Regulus' middle initial is unknown (it does not appear on the family tree tapestry at 12 Grimmauld Place, the Black family home and headquarters of The Order of the Phoenix). However it is possible he may have been given the middle name Alphard (after his uncle), or Arcturus (after his grandfather), as those names do appear on the Black Family Tree. The family tree was derived from a hand-drawn sketch of the tree made by J.K. Rowling herself, and from information extracted from the novels and various interviews.

The object which had replaced the real Horcrux was a locket. Dumbledore believed the real Horcrux to also be a locket, once the property of Salazar Slytherin. Chapter Six of The Order of the Phoenix mentions a heavy, unopenable locket in a glass case at number 12 Grimmauld Place. The locket was amongst property discarded by Sirius Black as he undertook a total cleaning of the house. There was no mention of it having a Slytherin seal, which the real Slytherin locket is known to have. The locket may have been taken either by the house elf Kreacher, who was trying to save Black family artifacts from the house cleaning, or stolen by Mundungus Fletcher, who was keen to exploit the financial potential of any neglected goods. Mundungus is later spotted with a suitcase full of possessions taken from the house, and in the company of the barman from the Hog's Head. J. K. Rowling confirmed the barman is Dumbledore's brother Aberforth. Aberforth was seen drawing his cloak about his throat, as if concealing something, as he walked away from the scene. It is possible that he now has the locket. Mundungus was later arrested and taken to Azkaban prison.